a light workers struggle...
I SEE your Soul.
I FEEL your emotions.
I WITNESS your ego.
And I used to want to take your discomfort away and make it all better for you.
THIS was my struggle as a sensitive, intuitive light worker.
And this IS me.
A sensitive, intuitive, light worker.
It always has been.
A healer and a Soul Guide long before I even knew what it was to BE that.
I just didn’t understand how it all worked, so I hid it from the world. From everyone in my world.
I felt isolated and misunderstood, so I pretended to fit in and conform to the boxes of society, until I grew too big for those boxes and couldn’t hide any longer.
+ I used to get exhausted and my energy would drain when I was around big groups of people. Then I’d spend the next few days exhausted needing to recover my energy, and not knowing why. But not resting, just pushing myself to keep going with life and maintain my fully booked schedule.
+ I hated alone time because I didn’t want to hear the negative worlds and judgements in my head, so I filled up every spare moment of my schedule I possibly could with socializing and work. (As I write this I’m on a plane to Sydney to spend 2 out of 4 days by myself, with my thoughts and my energy and I can not wait! A total contrast to my past need to be busy with constant noise and distractions from my inner and eternal worlds!)
+ I remember as a kid on school camp, in a dorm with 12 girls, I would constantly feel ‘sick in the stomach’, and spend quite a bit of time sitting with the teachers in ‘sick bay’, just so I could ease the discomfort a little. Not realizing I was feeling everyone else’s emotions as well as my own.
+ I would KNOW things about people and convince myself that my mind was just making it up.
+ I felt immense fear about sharing any of this with anyone. And held it in for most of my life.
After years of seeking some clarity, desperate to understand my experiences, and many, many moments of self discovery I now know that:
+ My energy was very available and open to others, and I was tuning into everyone’s energy without even realizing it. I had zero energetic boundaries and no idea of how to protect my energy, let alone an understanding that it was a practice that even existed!
+ I didn’t understand how to work with my ego or that I didn’t have to buy into her fears. I slowly learned there was a voice of peace and love buried deeply beneath her. And that the voice of those fears leads me to my next lesson, expansion and re-birth.
+ I can differentiate what I am feeling as my own or someone else’s and how to clear my energy and how to heal my own ‘stuff’.
+ I am sensitive and highly intuitive, and that I have a strong connection with the universal energy and I can tell the difference between my thoughts and the wisdom and knowledge that is flowing through me from this universal energy.
+ My fears of sharing my experiences were my way of staying safe and small and avoiding the work that I am here to do. It was a sneaky way my ego kept me from sharing my gifts (which I believe we all have access too). And having been back to many a past life I have realized that I have been silenced and persecuted for being a healer, an alchemist and an intuitive, and for the innate power that lies within me (that lies within us all!)
As I learned to clear my energy, create boundaries and decode everything I was experiencing.
As I began to know and feel the difference between my thoughts and the downloads and knowledge that ‘dropped in’ from the divine.
As I began to recognize the difference between my energy and that of others that I had tuned into.
As I began to face my fears and do the work of remembering the innate healing powers and intuition that runs through my soul and my cells.
I also began to realize that I can not save everyone. And that I’m not here to.
I know those who are searching for the healing and support from the work I am here to do, will find it because, what we are seeking is seeking us.
I know that I can SEE your Soul, FEEL your emotions and WITNESS your ego and let you be on your journey, whatever that looks like for you.
It is not for me to need or want your journey to look any different for you, or to wish you were experiencing anything different to what you are.
You are a soul having a human experience. And it is through the contrast and the lessons and the rebirthing that you will experience exactly what your soul needs you to.
I am however here to offer my guidance and experience to support you back to your soul, to remember your highest truth and to heal that which is rising to the surface.
I am not here to tell you what your journey should look like and what you should do next.
I am here to guide you inward.
I am here to invite you to remember your truth and to hold space for you to become curious about your journey and your soul gifts.
I am here to create a safe space in which you can heal and learn to embody all that you are feeling.
I am here, paving the path and stepping more and more into my truth and my light by doing the work of aligning to my truth, healing my wounds and raising my vibration.
I am here as your sensitive, intuitive, big sister…
I am here as your Soul Guide.
And you are here to BE you.
Big love and hugs,
Keen to learn more about working with me?
If any of this resonates with you and you feel more deeply understood by reading these words, you may wish to explore the ways in which you can work with me.
I work with clients one on one in the DIVINE Wellbeing clinic in Mt.Eliza Victoria, and also with clients worldwide via skype.
I ADORE leading retreats and circles and attuning soul searchers to the ancient art of Reiki.
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16/12/2022 05:20:33 am
Nice blog postt
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