That afternoon while the sunshine filled the sky and lit up the divine mumma nature that surrounded us, I was inspired to lead a silent walk. In my mind this was going to take place in the morning, but the universe had different ideas.
We grabbed our paper and pen and set off with the intention of walking for half an hour at a slow relaxed pace and opened up space for our ego to enter the stage.
One of my favorite tools for gaining clarity is a game I call "Ego Sais, Soul Sais". This silent walk was the perfect space for that game and that clarity.
As we walked my mind was quite clear initially.
I was extremely aware of my gorgeous surrounds as I began to ask myself, “what else is left to release this weekend after last night’s experience?”
My ego replied...
Ego sais, “Please don’t go searching, I can’t handle a repeat of last night!”
I then asked myself “What is it that I feel I’d like some clarity around? Where do I feel my next expansion lies?”
And straight away it popped up.
Ego sais, “These courses and books you’ve started writing will never be finished and they will never see the light of day and support those who they have come through you to support. You keep getting in your own way and you’re just not going to finish any of it!”
As I allowed myself to feel and release the doubts, I sunk effortlessly into my soul space. I asked her what my truth is, and she replied.
Soul sais, “You know you can do anything. Write firstly for yourself and surrender the rest. Have fun playing on this earthly plane, after all, that’s what you’re here for. Be free, be here, be you”
As I bought my awareness back to my breath and my stunning surrounds, I instantly felt lighter. I felt free of old constraints and I had a new leash on creativity and the limitless possibilities that we all have access to.
The afternoon was spent napping, sipping tea, reading, pulling angel cards, enjoying soulful chats with my soul sisters and being held in our sanctuary.
After a soothing hot shower and some delicious dinner we filled our tea cups and settled in for the evening.
Every one gathered around the fire place, snuggled up with pillows, blankets and soothing cups of tea, ready for some “release and reconnect” time.
We all pulled out our note paper that came with us on the silent walk and our soul communication time.
It was time to set the stage and get the circle warmed up.
I shared how initially I had nothing but peace in my mind, after having my big breakthrough that morning, I couldn’t imagine there being anything else ready to be released. And to be honest, my humanness wasn’t ready to do any more major purging after the previous nights session. Then I asked myself what I was feeling stuck with, and ‘writing’ popped up. I shared my ego’s doubts, then what my soul replied as my truth, folded my paper, popped it into the bowl and handed it around to my soul sister next to me.
I was blown away by the vulnerability of every single woman in the circle that night. As we went around one by one, all my soul sisters shared their ego’s fears and their souls wishes and words of love.
One after another, these courageous women opened up their heart and soul. They released no longer serving beliefs, energies and old patterns and sank into the truth of their souls.
I see vulnerability to be an incredible strength, and an act that allows us to heal more every time we connect to that part of ourselves. In the room that evening, there was some serious healing going on!
Soul sais, “When we hold space for our vulnerability, it all becomes ok.
The fear, the doubts, the smallness we have felt so safe in.
All of it becomes ok to feel and to release.
When we hold space for our vulnerability we realise that the veil we have been seeing the world through can be removed, and that our greatest fears become our most courageous strengths.
When we hold space for our vulnerability we allow our wings to open and our soul to soar. As we expand and our dreams come a little closer, we take flight along the path of our deepest soul truth.
When we hold space for our vulnerability we become free.
We become one.
We come home.”
As we reached the end of the circle and everyone had their space and time to release the grips of their ego and reconnect to the truth of their soul, one by one we took our note paper holding those fears and placed them in the fire. The lightness was palpable as the weight of these no longer serving energies and old frame works were bought into the light and into the fire.
“And now, it’s time to dance!” were the next words that came from my mouth.
I’d had a couple of songs in mind that I thought would come into play on the Sunday as I closed the retreat, but it felt like the most perfect time to dance out any remaining physical blocks by shaking our bodies!
We covered our alter in candles and turned off the lights.
We gathered arm in arm in a circle and the following came through me:
“Repeat after me:
I love myself.
I stand my ground.
I am connected.
I honor my intuition.
Then we moved out creating a large circle and as I pumped up the music we danced.
“By candle light we danced to release from our physical bodies that which we’d released from our ego’s…
We shook off old energies that held us safe in past times, the energies that were holding back our wings…
By candle light under the new moon we spread our wings and became free”
Sunday morning I headed upstairs for our morning yoga session. We all bonded over our amazing night sleep after all the emotional releases we’d experienced the day before.
There was a fresh lightness in the air.
A feeling of, ‘all the work has been done”.
We’d all had such great nights sleep with many having quite vivid dreams as our energies took the time to integrate in our dream state.
This morning I was ready to flow!
After another divine yoga session with out resident goddess Sarah Elise, we filled our bellies with a delicious cooked breaky. Coconut yoghurt, fruit and the yummiest granola on the planet by my gorgeous friends the Conscious Creations Co.
As we filled our bellies some of my sisters shared what the weekend had meant to them and how they felt different from when they’d arrived.
I was bought to tears as some of the girls shared their deep gratitude for me creating this vision of mine and holding this space for them to connect back to their souls truth.
It felt like EVERY part of me from every life time had come together and was thanking me through the awareness of my physical body…
The whole weekend I felt wrapped in an energy of deep love, bliss and trust. With the deepest of knowing’s that I am living out my souls purpose at a time in history that it is needed more than ever before for it to be safe to do so in the light of the day and in the light of our society.
This retreat will always hold a special space in my heart and soul. Every part of this experience I am so grateful for, and I love reflecting on the energies that were experienced in such a palabable way that weekend and the soulful sisterhood that came together.
There is more clarity, passion and alignment with my souls mission than ever before and with every spark of courage and bliss I will continue to honor my intuitive callings not only for myself, but for every single one of my soul sisters and brothers out there.
At a time in history where we need it the most, I will continue to follow my visions and souls desires and walk this path of supporting souls, and the world to reconnect to their truth.
I believe we can find that soul connection in every day life, and it is one of missions to share the ‘how to’ with the world.
I have a burning desire to inspire others by walking my talk and shining my light brightly in the world.
I believe we heal the world by first healing ourselves…
I love this Rumi quote, it sums it up pretty beautifuly:
“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world.
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.” Rumi
And for me now, I’m sinking back into a simplified life on my journey and continuing to follow my intuitive whispers with more surrender, trust and more fire in my belly than ever before to shine my light in the world to support you to shine yours.
Only the divine knows what’s next to come…
Until next time beautiful souls…
Big love and hugs,
PS...To join me on my next retreat, click HERE for more info...
PPS... To read about some of my gorgeous Soul Siters experience of attending the Soul Sister Retreat, click the links below.
Julie Parker, Beautiful You Academy, read about Julie's retreat experience over HERE.
Janelle Crawford, Mentor/ Soul Whisperer/ Spiritual Gangster, read Janelle's beautiful vulnerable journey HERE.
Lauren Masterson, apieceofll blog, check out Lauren's honest accounts over HERE.
Kylie Anderson, beyourradiantself, you can enjoy Kylie's soulful journey oer HERE.