Doubt is inevitable from our ego as we expand...
From my experience anyway.
It's the human part of us trying to hold onto the eternal and more expansive part, in an attemt to hold it back from expanding more and more...
This experience I had was such a beautiful receiving from the universe that threw me into humor and out of my serious dispute between my soul and my ego.
I was on a plane on the way to singapore airport with my family, a layover on the way to Thailand. My hubby was entertaining the kids while I was listening to a meditation where I was being asked to invite in and tune into the energy of an Archangel or Ascended Master.
Instantly I put pressure on myself, as fear from my ego began to rise.
"You wont receive anything, and even if you do it'll be wrong."
"It won't be what others experience and you'll just feel stupid for even trying."
On and on my ego went.
"STOP" I said to her voice of fear and allowed myself to feel and release her concerns, then drop into my soul space.
As I asked myself which energy I'd like to invite in and feel into, 'Buddha' popped in straight away. 'Ok' I thought, and began to be taken away by the audio into a divine meditative state.
Almost instantly I saw Buddha and felt his deep peace and surrender take over my whole body. Compassion for everyone and everything began to surface and spread through my physical being like a warm and expansive wave of deep love.
Visually I was sitting with Buddha on top of a hill, surrounded by lush green forrest. We sat in meditation together feeling our energy rise and letting it eminate out to the rest of the world. We were practicing Rumi's quote: "Yesterdday I was smart so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise and I am changing myself."
We were leading by example and healing everything that was rising within, and letting the healing flow from the centre of our being and into the collective conscious.
I then saw this deep peace, surrender and bliss that I was feeling, begin to flow out to the world around us like circles of rippeling water, like when a stone is dropped in water.
As the meditation ended I came back into my body in the plane and sat with my experience for a bit.
It was so strong and palpable within me I knew it with every fibre of my being to be a real experience.
My mind felt calmer and my body peaceful.
However, there was this one niggling thought hanging around in the background, "You know what Buddah symbolises so that was easy, you won't be able to repeat the experience with other Archangels and Ascended Masters, the ones you don't know so well"
I noticed this thought surfacing and realised that It's presence was allerting me to the fact that I'm in a 'transition' phase of a rebirth at the moment. A phase that can be filled with egoic doubt, resistance and physical tension. (But that's a whole other blog post about the stages of rebirth, something I work a lot with personally and will share one day soon.)
Our flight landed and we gathered up our bags and the 4 of us headed off the plane.
We headed towards the main paot of the terminal we were in to begin exploring and walking and moving and the 3 hours we had in Singapore airport.
As we headed along one of the travelators, my hubby and I each holding the had of one of our babes and loaded up with bags. We stepped off one travelator, and as we made our way to the next one, I looked up from making sure I still had everything I left the plane with, and nearly ran straight into a Bhuddist monk! Adorned in his signature orange robes. He even had the signature Buddha belly that the one in my meditation had! I smiled and had a good chuckle to myself and thanked the universe for this sign and reasurrance.
I felt myself surrender to another level of remembering my truth and felt more clear and back to complete trust in my abilities and awarenesses.
That felt good!
I share this story with you because I love when i'm in the moment and simply aware of my surroundings and the little (or big!) signs and syncronicities that the universe is gifting us with all of the time.
What signs have you received lately?
What coincidences or syncroicities have occured, and upon reflection have made more sense to you?
I'd love to hear your experiences, so comment below if you feel called to share:)
Have a beautiful day!
Big love and hugs,